A couple of nights ago, I had a conversation with someone that left me feeling...disturbed for lack of better description. Disturbed because I thought certain aspects of my life were very clear to everyone, both those who know me personally and those who know me through my blog. I usually think that I am very transparent, so when somebody sees something differently than what I think I'm displaying to the world, I feel...I don't know...bad. The last thing I want to do is lead anyone in the wrong direction.
I am a sex educator by profession, and a sex (among other things) blogger by passion. Yes, I do know a good deal about sex. Yes, I do have a great deal of toys and other equipment at my disposal. And yes, many would consider me to be an attractive individual. But in case you didn't get the memo, my sex life at the moment...it kind of sucks. When I first started this blog I was a lot more active, but since becoming a sex educator, sex has actually become less frequent for me. I don't know if it's because I've become more particular about my partners, or because most people assume I'm always in the sack so I don't have time for them, but I am always accepting applications, and I promise you...
there is no waiting list.
My last relationship ended more than a year ago, now. Since then, I have probably had less than ten sexual partners, and I have dated one person. One.
I'm not telling you this because I'm trying to disprove the theory that I am a slut. I would
love to be more of a slut (an ethical one, of course). And I would love to go on more dates, when my finances allow. But this is simply not the case right now, and that is the way things are.
I apologize if there was any confusion. But I can pretty much guarantee you that any moment you are thinking that I am out with some boy doing something fun, 90% of the time I am at home doing something really lame and unproductive.
Everybody got that? Good.
What's the old say? "If I had 1/2 the fun people thought I was having, I'd be having a blast!" Or something along those lines. ;-)
ReplyDeleteI've never heard that one before, but that's perfect!
DeleteI know a LOT of sexuality (and kink) educators and this is a problem for the vast majority of us. It's the big job hazard that no one warns you about.
ReplyDeleteA whole group of us were sitting around talking a few months ago and we all agreed that what happens is that because we talk about sex, everyone assumes we're having tons of it, clearly too much to have time for *them*. But since everyone assumes the same thing, we end up not getting approached by *anyone*, even folk who are interested in us.